Tag Archives: anxiety

mitt romney steals my baby or, adoption anxiety

Posted on February 5, 2012 by Emily

My sister-in-law was in for a quick visit this weekend.  It was fabulous to see her and finally be able to share parenting stories.  For the past eight years, we have watched her raise her own children, always feeling a … Continue reading →

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the wonder of the now (or, Cheesesteak 1, Shelob 0)

Posted on November 18, 2010 by Emily

As I was walking to court this afternoon, for what promised (and proved) to be a very uneventful hearing, I felt a strange sensation creeping over me.  It was a faint sensation, not overpowering, but it was vaguely and disturbingly reminiscent of … Continue reading →

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a twisted blessing

Posted on October 26, 2010 by Emily

Two weeks ago, my delicious colonoscopy revealed no evidence suggestive of cancer, but something about my appendix struck my doctor as a bit curious.  In the spirit of hyper-vigilance with which I am now and forever to be monitored – … Continue reading →

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these things help

Posted on October 8, 2010 by Emily

I am generally averse to lists.  But on a Friday afternoon, shorthand is useful.  And since I spent last evening processing my pre-scope anxiety in a rather more flowerly fashion than I’d originally intended, let me try to break it … Continue reading →

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dreams, whiplash and pre-scope anxiety (oh my!)

Posted on October 7, 2010 by Emily

It is expected and logical that the eve of two surveillance scopes (lower and upper GI in a delicious one-two punch) would find me in a somewhat heightened state of anxiety. The psychological whiplash goes something like this: Spend an … Continue reading →

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the readiness is all

Posted on August 8, 2010 by Emily

Desperate to resume “living” as quickly as possible after finishing chemotherapy in June of 2008, I returned to work – part-time, and in a limited capacity, but returned nonetheless – just three short weeks after my last treatment.  In hindsight, … Continue reading →

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shine on

Posted on February 7, 2010 by Emily

When my husband and I moved into the house we have been renting for the last three and a half years, our heads promptly filled with visions of the happy life we would live here, even the family we would … Continue reading →

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magical/irrational (CT scan eve)

Posted on January 19, 2010 by Emily

Tomorrow morning, when I enter the radiology suite at Pennsylvania Hospital, my passport to cancer-land will be stamped yet again.  It’s time for my second CT scan. The first was over the summer, when I was still a little rough … Continue reading →

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three month check-up

Posted on September 23, 2009 by Emily

It’s that time again.  Three-month check-up tomorrow.  With each successive quarterly interval, I have found myself slightly less anxious.  There is less of a sense of foreboding.  I no longer see the designated date from weeks and weeks away, looming … Continue reading →

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