Monthly Archives: June 2010

running for my life

Posted on June 27, 2010 by Emily

A huge box hastily labeled “CANCER STUFF” was finally opened today, one of the last from the April move. The room it has inhabited since April 9 is at last turning into the study that I have been dreaming of … Continue reading →

Posted in Life After Cancer, running | Tagged (RED), 10K, exercise, Pinelands, rehabilitation, running, stage III ovarian cancer, stamina, strength, Uncle David | 1 Comment

mister mean genes (or, expect the unexpected)

Posted on June 23, 2010 by Emily

Today I have had the surprising experience of someone else’s good news making me feel like shit. Are we in middle school again? I recall, quite starkly, a “profound thought” from my high school notes of the same name, which … Continue reading →

Posted in cancer, Life After Cancer, Work | Tagged biking, breast cancer, bungling criminals, cancer family, fate, genetic mutation, guilt, high school, jealousy, middle school, Moab, recurrence, running, unspoken truth | Leave a comment

the essence of injustice

Posted on June 18, 2010 by Emily

Other women with ovarian cancer are dying. Lots of them. Young women, women my age. I don’t understand why they are dying and I am not. I feel a little guilty. No, a lot guilty. I am so fucking alive, … Continue reading →

Posted in cancer, Death, Life After Cancer | Tagged grapefruit, head-on collision, HNPCC, injustice, luck, mutation, stage III ovarian cancer, survivor, trenches | 3 Comments

performing cancer

Posted on June 14, 2010 by Emily

My efforts to explain and unpack my cancer experience have always been narrative, linear. I try to tell a story – or, lots of little stories – clearly, concisely, and in a way that people can connect with and understand. … Continue reading →

Posted in Death, Film, Life After Cancer, Writing | Tagged acting, Anne, dramatic fodder, Emma Thompson, Facebook, high school, Lynn Redgrave, metastatic ovarian cancer, Northwestern, one-woman show, performance, poetry, tags, theater, WIT | 1 Comment

TWO YEARS ON: TO LIFE

Posted on June 12, 2010 by Emily

In an attempt to measure the journey of the last two years, let me try to qualify different kinds of exhaustion. Today, I am, I admit, a bit wiped out. Last night, in celebration of Mike’s birthday as well as … Continue reading →

Posted in Life After Cancer, running | Tagged air guitar, beer, Cisplatin, end of treatmemt, fatigue, iced coffee, Iva, Jose Cuervo Tradicional, Lucy, Mike's birthday, pizza, poker, proseco, running, Taxol, videos | 7 Comments

up off my knees

Posted on June 2, 2010 by Emily

This morning on my run, less than ten minutes in, one of my favorite U2 songs, “PLEASE,” came up on the shuffle. As I strode along the now-familiar north side of Cooper River, these lyrics struck me: “So you never … Continue reading →

Posted in Life After Cancer, music, running | Tagged "PLEASE", Andrea, Cooper River, encouragement, gardening, Memorial Day, rehabilitation, Teal Ribbon 5K, U2 | 2 Comments