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shine on

When my husband and I moved into the house we have been renting for the last three and a half years, our heads promptly filled with visions of the happy life we would live here, even the family we would … Continue reading

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running doesn’t cure cancer (but i’m going to run anyway)

When cancer struck, I went from being fit and active (not obsessively so, but I biked with enthusiasm and hit the gym three or four times a week) to being completely inert.  Not just inert, but sliced, diced, poured out … Continue reading

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the wanting comes in waves

In a post a few weeks back, I was thinking about the injustice of a world in which people who are unable or unwilling to raise children continue to produce babies at an often-alarming rate, while people like me get totally fucked out … Continue reading

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there’s something wrong with this picture

Panic – mild and fleeting, but noticeable nonetheless – paid me an unexpected visit early this afternoon. This seemingly unshakable feeling of optimism and positivity has cloaked me for months now.  I have felt invincible, buoyant.  It’s been amazing. But … Continue reading

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on becoming a cancer fairy godmother

Last night’s brutal Phillies loss makes Friday seems about a million years ago.  Perhaps I should have made an attempt to commit that day’s thoughts to writing earlier, but now – Sunday afternoon, with time further warped due to the … Continue reading

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still champions: a look back at the ’08 phils (and emily)

Last night – sometime after 2 AM Eastern Time – my beloved Phillies pulled out an extremely improbable win against the Colorado Rockies in a pivotal Game Three of the NLDS.  I finally drifted off to sleep just as Matt … Continue reading

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three month check-up

It’s that time again.  Three-month check-up tomorrow.  With each successive quarterly interval, I have found myself slightly less anxious.  There is less of a sense of foreboding.  I no longer see the designated date from weeks and weeks away, looming … Continue reading

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the sounds

I have long suspected that the reason I love music so much is because I lack a strong sense of smell.  For most people, the conventional wisdom is that smell is the primary trigger for memory.  Something else must be … Continue reading

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go with what you know

Today, I took a trip part-way down the rabbit hole with one of my clients, a lost and disturbed young man who seems to be, with each passing day, losing his grip on reality.  His story, though by no means … Continue reading

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been there, done that

Tomorrow, my cousin’s wife will be starting chemo for breast cancer.  She was diagnosed a few months ago and has already undergone a partial mastectomy.  When I learned about her illness, I posted briefly over at my Planet Cancer page … Continue reading

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