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Tag Archives: HNPCC
invisible touch
In an unexpected twist of fate, the presence of these writings in the public space of the Internet has revealed deep and difficult connections between my status as a cancer survivor and an adoptive mother. I owe this in large … Continue reading
Posted in adoption, fellow fighters, Infertility, Life After Cancer
Tagged "mommy club", adoption, assumptions, HNPCC, invisibility, nosy, parenting with cancer, queasiness
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leap of faith
Thursday night, Mike and I attended a workshop on the effects of substance abuse during pregnancy. Our agency, Open Arms, does a fabulous job of making the adoption process all about “lifelong learning,” and one of the areas they want … Continue reading
Posted in adoption, Family, Infertility, Life After Cancer
Tagged abdominal cavity, adoption, birth mother, chance, fetus, HNPCC, leap of faith, luck, Open Arms, pregnancy, reproductive organs, statistics, substance abuse, unpredictability
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dreams, whiplash and pre-scope anxiety (oh my!)
It is expected and logical that the eve of two surveillance scopes (lower and upper GI in a delicious one-two punch) would find me in a somewhat heightened state of anxiety. The psychological whiplash goes something like this: Spend an … Continue reading
Posted in adoption, Death, First Descents, Life After Cancer, medicine, running, Work
Tagged 10K, adoption seminar, anxiety, buzz-kill, colonoscopy, Dali, David Cronenberg, Denver Marathon, Dr. Chu, First Descents, going nuclear, HNPCC, NLDS, Nurse Sarah, Paul Thomas Anderson, recurrence, referrals, upper endoscopy
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next time, a lollipop
“You’ve been through a lot.” Simple words, uttered by an attending internist I met for the first time this morning, but it was exactly the straight-forward recognition that I look for from people – especially doctors – when they first … Continue reading
the essence of injustice
Other women with ovarian cancer are dying. Lots of them. Young women, women my age. I don’t understand why they are dying and I am not. I feel a little guilty. No, a lot guilty. I am so fucking alive, … Continue reading
Posted in cancer, Death, Life After Cancer
Tagged grapefruit, head-on collision, HNPCC, injustice, luck, mutation, stage III ovarian cancer, survivor, trenches
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dear nurse sarah (and co.): thank you for saving my life
Before I am completely buried under the growing piles of boxes that surround me, before tomorrow comes along and sweeps me up in one work drama or another, I need to take a minute and offer some thoughts on yesterday’s … Continue reading
Posted in Life After Cancer
Tagged CA125, Cancerland, caregivers, checkup, Christina Chu, CT scan, gyn-onc, HNPCC, neuropathy, nostalgia, running, Sarah, Silverstein Seven, South Jersey, thank you, treatment team
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the lynch syndrome, with apologies
Some things are just plain unexpected. Or are they? Yesterday, when the rain-soaked mail fell through the slot in the front door, I discovered a thin envelope from Penn GI Genetics – far too thin to be the packet of … Continue reading
Posted in cancer, Life After Cancer
Tagged apology, compassion, HNPCC, humanity, Lynch Syndrome, Matt Damon, Penn GI Genetics
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the RIGHT NOW! box
Last month, I visited the genetic counseling folks at Penn’s GI Practice. I sat with a GI doctor, a genetics counselor, a genetics intern, and some other unidentified young physician. Before I met with the lead doctor, the intern was … Continue reading
Posted in Family, Life After Cancer
Tagged ALL, Baseball, Cancerland, fear, floods, gardening, genetic testing, Hamlet, HNPCC, Jazzfest, lymphoma, New Orleans, peril, phlebotomist, RIGHT NOW! box, running, strike three, Utah
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(cancer) flash forward; (cancer) flash back
On days when I am due for a check-up with my oncologist or some other cancer-related appointment, I have been known to do things like forget to pack my yoga pants for my acupuncture appointment after work. Yesterday, after getting … Continue reading