Author Archives: Emily

all in a day’s work

Posted on January 26, 2010 by Emily

Today, the somewhat complicated relationship I have always had with my job got that much trickier. Know, first of all, that I work in an office populated almost entirely with women – mostly young women of child-bearing age – and … Continue reading →

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magical/irrational (CT scan eve)

Posted on January 19, 2010 by Emily

Tomorrow morning, when I enter the radiology suite at Pennsylvania Hospital, my passport to cancer-land will be stamped yet again.  It’s time for my second CT scan. The first was over the summer, when I was still a little rough … Continue reading →

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getting over certainty

Posted on January 17, 2010 by Emily

It feels like an eternity since I sat down to do this.  What does that mean, I wonder?  That cancer and its aftermath are finally taking a backseat to other things?  That seems implausible.  For regardless of what is in … Continue reading →

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simplicity: holidays 2009

Posted on January 3, 2010 by Emily

The holiday season is finally over.  That seemingly endless stretch starting with Thanksgiving and ending with New Year’s has come and gone, and here I sit, wearing my favorite fleece pants and my re-imagined fuzzy purple cancer socks, listening to … Continue reading →

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the wanting comes in waves

Posted on December 29, 2009 by Emily

In a post a few weeks back, I was thinking about the injustice of a world in which people who are unable or unwilling to raise children continue to produce babies at an often-alarming rate, while people like me get totally fucked out … Continue reading →

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reflections on the season

Posted on December 23, 2009 by Emily

Two days shy of Christmas, and I finally have a moment to catch my breath.  Five nights with my parents as house guests; a blizzard; house-hunting; last minute gifts; news of my clean and clear CA125.  It’s been an eventful few … Continue reading →

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the meaning of night

Posted on December 15, 2009 by Emily

I love a good book.  Reading takes up a good chunk of my leisure time, and I love telling people how during my seven months out of work recovering from surgery and getting chemo, I read like a fiend and … Continue reading →

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dance party, 8:30 AM, my gyn/onc’s office: be there

Posted on December 13, 2009 by Emily

Apparently the rules that apply to human house guests also apply to dogs – three nights, maximum.  No, I kid. We’ve had a great time with Marley, our dear friends’ Pomapoo, who has been with us since Friday night.  Now, … Continue reading →

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less is more

Posted on December 9, 2009 by Emily

Sometimes, writing is not the answer. Sometimes, there is nothing to be gained from stewing in my own juices, mulling over the things which tripped up my cancer “kitty switch” today. It is what it is. Life is complicated in … Continue reading →

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my dog ate my GI cancer risk evaluation forms

Posted on December 8, 2009 by Emily

LATE AFTERNOON (5:15 PM) One of my old friends from high school made a very funny observation the other day on Facebook: “I think people say something is a “perfect storm” when what they really mean is that it’s a … Continue reading →

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